Tuesday, October 21, 2008

Sometimes I only feel this big.
I just graduated high school, yet, I feel as though I was accomplishing more there than now. I work at a dead-end job and I am so ready to achieve my EMT certification, to go to a university, and move into my new apartment.

Maybe its my recent development of mono, but I feel so lazy and unmotivated. I do not feel challenged. The school system doesnt challenge our youth and my community college does nothing to correct it. Transitioning to college is like never having got out of high school. I fear that this may inhibit my chances of becoming a physician.

I think I just have mono and depression. Whatever.

1 comment:

Wendy said...

When I was in college, I felt like I was alone in a sea of 2,000 people... Everyone had friends except me and it was quite depressing (I still have NO friends lol)it was so depressing in fact that I dropped out my second semester, which I really regret. In high school it was easier because it was easier to make friends and not feel awkward. Since I moved to GA ( 3 years ago) I have yet to find any kindred souls. Being shy doesn't help either! :)